Love is a Choice

We are doing tiny baby steps and sometimes great huge strides and choosing to fall back in love with each other.  I have realized that love is a choice.  It is a choice to love him.  It's a choice for him to love me.  I wake up and think of all the reasons that I married him.  All the reasons I choose him to be the father of our children.  I could think of all the reasons I could hate him and all the reasons why I shouldn't care anymore...but I don't. 

I look at our wedding photos and realize that the love I felt for him on that day is the same love I feel now...even with the affair.  The affair rocked our world but when it comes down to it the adoration and love I felt then is the same as now. 

It's a comforting feeling...it makes me think that we will be okay in the long run.  That we both are choosing to look at all the great things about each other and our relationship instead of the bad.  It's not naivety per say...it's the choice we are making.

We still have a lot of work to do but I think the hardest part is over...we made our decision on what we both want and it's each other.  Now it's just time to do what needs to be done to ensure that happens. 

I am so excited for our new beginning...our fresh new start.