Life is a bitch sometimes. It dishes out more than you can handle...it beats at you with pain and disappointment. Financial troubles eat at your ability to think straight and people shut down. The loss of pregnancies tore at my soul and I shut down.
That is what happened to us. We were a bonded couple and I truly believe that we were meant to be together forever. But life got in the way. Stupid unfair life.
Neither one us deserved this....we worked so hard to get a home, an education, our family and for what? A foreclosure notice, debt and now a failing marriage with two innocent kids. It is unreal to me that this is even happening to us.
My husband has now given up. He no longer wants to be with me because he is "tired". He wants the same feelings that the other woman gave him. What he doesn't believe in right now is that I can do that....we can heal from this with time and be the couple we once were; a better couple than we once were.
I just need him to not lose hope in us so we can stay together and be the family that I always dreamed of, the family that I planned with him. The family that our kids deserve.
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